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my forgiving nature was questioned today? or does this is another evidence of me simple being fickle. looks like ive got a long list for new resolution.
invictus
Posted in on byOut of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
in a nutshell
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yet again again again i always think ive been misread, misjudged, or misinterpreted. its simple. every single thing i do is in regard to keep someone/ anyone happy at heart. i never (yes NEVER is the word) INTENTIONALLY want to hurt anyone. i dont blurt out things, i dont hold grudges, all i do is say to myself repeatedly ITS ALL GONNA BE ALRITE.
when the road diverges to two, you take the beaten path, you take the path that you are familiar with. without hesistation, its human instinct to do so. i do that as well. i was afraid of unfamiliarities, i was afraid of taking chances, i was afraid of fucking up. that WAS me. i took the beaten path, known faces, friendly smiles, warm embraces, warm souls, that WAS and IS the path i chose. but what do i do when a new character jumps into my path and conveniently makes itself feel home? shall i be harsh and send it of the door ? when all that face wants is a chance to prove itself right ? (now the moral questions arise : do everyone deserve a chance? do anyone ever deserve forgiveness? do we have our rights ? ) ... so as complicated this THING is, familiar faces tend to unfamiliar, is it because my attention is driven away.. or am i simply being ignorant. neither! so, this is it.... i know.. my life is FUCKING SHORT..all i wanna do is make everyone happy. i know... im going to continue on this beaten track, there is not time for the road untaken! i want it to there. i want it to be real. i learnt my mistakes. i learnt that somethings should be said out aloud, somethings are to be kept within. being a student i am, we swore by confidentiality; who talks with you, will talk about you.
In a nutshell, ive learnt my mistake, how silly one can be to let it slip twice? as much as unconvincing i may sound.. totally satirical it all may seem to my eyes... im gonna remain in my place, with doors open, if you walk in ill receive you with my open arms. Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on myself.
simple mistake, may be not, how do u deny yourself of love? how deny yourself of compassion? how do you deny yourself of affection ? are these deadly sins? doubt anyone can do that ...believe all these elements can soften a rock! little things in life that makes it all beautiful. and ive learn that life is short, why sit and whine about it while you can be other skipping through the parks; kicking off autumn leaves....
when the road diverges to two, you take the beaten path, you take the path that you are familiar with. without hesistation, its human instinct to do so. i do that as well. i was afraid of unfamiliarities, i was afraid of taking chances, i was afraid of fucking up. that WAS me. i took the beaten path, known faces, friendly smiles, warm embraces, warm souls, that WAS and IS the path i chose. but what do i do when a new character jumps into my path and conveniently makes itself feel home? shall i be harsh and send it of the door ? when all that face wants is a chance to prove itself right ? (now the moral questions arise : do everyone deserve a chance? do anyone ever deserve forgiveness? do we have our rights ? ) ... so as complicated this THING is, familiar faces tend to unfamiliar, is it because my attention is driven away.. or am i simply being ignorant. neither! so, this is it.... i know.. my life is FUCKING SHORT..all i wanna do is make everyone happy. i know... im going to continue on this beaten track, there is not time for the road untaken! i want it to there. i want it to be real. i learnt my mistakes. i learnt that somethings should be said out aloud, somethings are to be kept within. being a student i am, we swore by confidentiality; who talks with you, will talk about you.
In a nutshell, ive learnt my mistake, how silly one can be to let it slip twice? as much as unconvincing i may sound.. totally satirical it all may seem to my eyes... im gonna remain in my place, with doors open, if you walk in ill receive you with my open arms. Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice shame on myself.
simple mistake, may be not, how do u deny yourself of love? how deny yourself of compassion? how do you deny yourself of affection ? are these deadly sins? doubt anyone can do that ...believe all these elements can soften a rock! little things in life that makes it all beautiful. and ive learn that life is short, why sit and whine about it while you can be other skipping through the parks; kicking off autumn leaves....
do i say frustration ?
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i believe you can NEVER kill a dead person. regardless of how many stabs one can take.. but once you are dead you will be dead. now that i sit and ponder the last few weeks of life. it has been a roller coaster ride. been under emotional turmoil and tremendous magnitude of pressure as time was ticking for me to make up my mind and steer my life along the right path.
however, SIGH! as much as i try nothing seem to work out right. exactly when i turned a new leaf, attempted to be a better person karma backfired me. i had fingers pointing towards my direction but when i chose to be harsh and mean... oh hell yeah baby I am indeed the bad one (thats without doubt)
but finally when i have come in terms with myself, as i frantically search to attain some sorta balance in my life and juggling it all ... there you go again, i still do get some amount of accusation. life seem to betray me.. shall i just be the fucked up person that i have been??
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however, SIGH! as much as i try nothing seem to work out right. exactly when i turned a new leaf, attempted to be a better person karma backfired me. i had fingers pointing towards my direction but when i chose to be harsh and mean... oh hell yeah baby I am indeed the bad one (thats without doubt)
but finally when i have come in terms with myself, as i frantically search to attain some sorta balance in my life and juggling it all ... there you go again, i still do get some amount of accusation. life seem to betray me.. shall i just be the fucked up person that i have been??
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3 days
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im gonna be away... im bidding farewell.... but i will be back :) miss-me-not you cute lil thing!
since u QUESTIONED me (for the zillionth time)
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lol..here i am bloggin' (why should i do that?? ) at the fact i should be jumping about merrily anticipating my road trip to kedah. thanks to you. im bloggin'! silly!!!! anyway... what should i say... ooo.like how i love to sleep when it rains! hide under my warm blankie (hugs would be magical).....how i love to just laze on my bed after i wake up... how i always want to hit the snooze button (oops... do i have a snooze function on my brand new HIGH END phone) ...
when u WANT TO DO IT SOOO BADLY...it never happens! like how im talking so much of shit now!!random and shitty! like seriously ...
ooo.. .... totally HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAZA, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VIMAL and HAPPY BIRTHWEEK TO BOTH OF YOU!!!
this is exactly when 23 slams. age weighs heavier and makes you shorter. you are not 22 and you are not 24. 23 isnt the finest age to be at... this is like a kid is wanting to grow up. now all you want to do is go back to childhood (or prolly grow up faster). tell me who ever wants the latter ??
no no .. im not being pessimistic about turning 23! its just what age does to you. i think ... it makes you wiser ....
fret not! you are not alone..we all age with time.... so seize your beautiful moments...and live life to the fullest.... and happiness is the essence to a happy life of course.... (this is my ramblings!!)
love y'all much!
p.s: with this I'm gonna do what my heart says ..... I'm gonna please myself :)
OH MY GOD .. U ARE UNBELIEVABLY BLIND!!!
when u WANT TO DO IT SOOO BADLY...it never happens! like how im talking so much of shit now!!random and shitty! like seriously ...
ooo.. .... totally HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAZA, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VIMAL and HAPPY BIRTHWEEK TO BOTH OF YOU!!!
this is exactly when 23 slams. age weighs heavier and makes you shorter. you are not 22 and you are not 24. 23 isnt the finest age to be at... this is like a kid is wanting to grow up. now all you want to do is go back to childhood (or prolly grow up faster). tell me who ever wants the latter ??
no no .. im not being pessimistic about turning 23! its just what age does to you. i think ... it makes you wiser ....
fret not! you are not alone..we all age with time.... so seize your beautiful moments...and live life to the fullest.... and happiness is the essence to a happy life of course.... (this is my ramblings!!)
love y'all much!
p.s: with this I'm gonna do what my heart says ..... I'm gonna please myself :)
OH MY GOD .. U ARE UNBELIEVABLY BLIND!!!
enchantment
Posted in on byIt felt like first kiss,
Life has many twists,
Even when it seem like a hit or miss,
One thing I'm sure...with you i saw bliss...
Life has many twists,
Even when it seem like a hit or miss,
One thing I'm sure...with you i saw bliss...
if it doesnt kill .. it only makes you stronger...
Posted in on byLife has been peculiar,
Riding on waters that weren't familiar,
The goals finally became clear,
Within him, there was no more fear.
He is back,
Once again on track,
Did take a short slack,
Finally, the nut he did crack.
She left him outside in the rain,
All alone to deal with the pain,
Worse off than being slain,
To live with himself he had to train.
Tear after tear he cried,
Until his eyes were nearly dried,
Today he stands with all his pride,
With the power of choice all on his side.
Riding on waters that weren't familiar,
The goals finally became clear,
Within him, there was no more fear.
He is back,
Once again on track,
Did take a short slack,
Finally, the nut he did crack.
She left him outside in the rain,
All alone to deal with the pain,
Worse off than being slain,
To live with himself he had to train.
Tear after tear he cried,
Until his eyes were nearly dried,
Today he stands with all his pride,
With the power of choice all on his side.
days
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days come ..days go.....
some days are meant to stay...
some days are never meant to be...
some days that you have been hoping never seem to find its way .....
but when eventually do....
sure you will be taken by surprise...
this is when the world conspires with you...
all you can do is turn that frown upwards...
smile and the world will smile along....
beautiful days.....
some days are meant to stay...
some days are never meant to be...
some days that you have been hoping never seem to find its way .....
but when eventually do....
sure you will be taken by surprise...
this is when the world conspires with you...
all you can do is turn that frown upwards...
smile and the world will smile along....
beautiful days.....
summer and sun!
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summer sunshine..
skip, skip and we will rhyme,
dawn to dusk ..hands entwined..
nothing you are but mine...
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